I have so much knitting & spinning craziness going on in my head right now - I’d really like another week off, just for me, just to knit, spin, doodle, and play. Mostly knit, but this fiber has been calling me for weeks now since Zen Mama put it out there. All the fiber that I have now is off-white or just little colored bits and I’m feeling uninspired by it (and so I’m wanting to dye, but have no supplies - kool-aid, here I come!).

On the knitting end, Ruth and some other fine folks have started a private design blog, which I couldn’t be more excited about - very timely and I can’t wait to get started.

Also, I’ve got babies that are due (not mine, before anyone panics and alerts the news media!) and that I’m actually feeling pulled to knit for - and one very special Beaster (almost not a baby anymore - she’s walking, and RUNNING!) for whom I’ve had a very particular project in mind for since before she was born, and which has almost reached fruition no less than 3 times…. (The path to hell is paved with good intentions) My theories on knitting for others and being a selfish knitter have been discussed before, probably on the old blog, and, well, it was one of my goals for this year to break that cycle, so I need to get started. This pattern from f. pea seems just perfect to me for one or two upcoming babies, but AB, honestly I’m not sure that I could make anything quite special enough for her despite all the lovely patterns out there. I will always feel that my knitting will fall short. The first try of AB’s gift was too scratchy and I made it about 75% of the way. The second one was too linty and I made it about halfway. The third, well you get the idea. I do want her to have something handknit from me though. And she WILL - preferably sometime before she turns 18. (BTW, AB is Anna Belle, a.k.a The Beaster a.k.a Beasta Beasta Aloueesta, is our niece!)

I want to knit this and this and this and this and this and this - the list goes on & on & on…. My Clapotis was such a great knitting experience that I immediately embarked on another small project thinking that I could not fail, and then I ran out of yarn - trying now to decide what to do with that one. In the meantime I started yet another little item to keep me going…. Good night! I want a whole wardrobe of new spring sweaters & wraps in beautiful colors! I want to adopt those poor sheep here in Apex and start a farm! I want to learn to navajo ply! I want to make something worthy of the people that I love! I want to quit my job and do nothing but fibery things (now that’s practical!) I want to design, I want to write, I want to create! Ack!! I am thankful for this little space, I never really thought that I would be attached to it, but attached I am. My fibery pursuits and this little blog have given me exactly the creative outlet that I needed and that had been lacking for some time. Only now I find it hard to focus on process improvement, databases, spreadsheets and charge capture (let alone caulking and painting and baseboards - though at least there is color!). Balance, balance, my friends. I’m striving for it.

For those of you who were able to bear with this little piece of self-indulgence, I salute you. I’m calm(er) now. I promise.